Never-Enoughness- The Relentless Chase

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Dear Me,

 

Today's reflections have unveiled a profound truth about the intricate dance of your life—an unrelenting pursuit, a relentless chase, not of drugs, but of accomplishment and external approval. The pages of your journal have spilled with raw emotions, and I can feel the weight of your longing for validation.

 

You've been a master at setting and conquering goals, a relentless force in the pursuit of success. Yet, in the wake of each triumph, the elation fades swiftly, leaving you unfulfilled. The missing piece of the puzzle, it seems, has been within you all along—an insatiable craving for self-approval.

 

Your honesty is striking as you admit to the constant search for external validation, the stress and exhaustion of the unending chase. "I needed to face myself; I needed to accept myself," you declare, a realization echoing with the raw vulnerability of self-discovery.

 

The external nods of approval have been the fleeting highs, the temporary fix to a deeper yearning. But today, a shift is palpable. You question the safety of determination without succumbing to the addictive chase. Can you be steadfast and driven without being enslaved by the pursuit?

 

The shadows of introspection deepen as you wonder about a lurking undercurrent of depression. The hiding, the longing, the lack of motivation—they paint a picture of a soul feeling trapped, restrained by societal expectations. The yearning for authenticity screams through your words, a desire to break free from the molds imposed by others and, most importantly, by yourself.

 

Relationships become a focal point, and you recognize patterns of choosing people who attempt to dominate. The waiting game, the frustration, the longing—it's a cycle you're ready to break. The realization dawns that to truly choose yourself means stepping away from the addiction of external validation.

 

The journal lays bare your struggle with self-care, a battle between avoidance and acknowledgment. The days of addiction to walking, a simple act with profound impacts, are remembered fondly. It's a gentle nudge to return to the practices that made you feel alive, starting with the simple joy of walking outside.

 

Today marks a pivotal moment—a decision to release the never-enoughness that has lingered like a shadow. You declare, "I am enough." It's a mantra to carry forward, a commitment to fully accepting yourself, relinquishing the belief that something is missing or that you're not doing enough.

 I encourage you to embrace this newfound clarity. Share your journey, your struggles, and your triumphs. Your authenticity is magnetic, and your words have the power to resonate with others on a similar path. Let the world witness the beautiful transformation as you choose yourself, break free from the chains of approval, and embrace the fullness of who you are.

 

With unwavering support,

ME

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