Closing The Tabs

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Dear Me,

 

This morning, as I tuned into my favorite YouTube sermon, a pop-up caught my attention—it was a notification about my laptop's power consumption. It made me pause and reflect. How many tabs are open in my mind and life? How much energy am I expending on these open tabs?

 

Currently on a 21-day fast, I've embarked on a journey to cultivate health in every aspect of my life—spiritual, mental, emotional, financial, relational, and career-wise. Instead of resolutions, I've opted for a year-long vision. This year, the focus is on achieving work-life harmony, replacing the elusive "balance" that always seems just out of reach.

 

During this fast, I've eliminated meat and alcohol, choosing to prioritize my well-being. Alcohol, a perennial first-quarter sacrifice, will be bid farewell for good this year. Dealing with acid reflux prompted me to reassess and commit to healing my insides, setting the stage for a vibrant, pain-free older age.

 

A family history of esophageal cancer and acid reflux heightened the stakes, leading me to consult a gastroenterologist. Surprisingly, the doctor remarked on my upbeat attitude and willingness to confront deep traumas. In that moment, I became a source of hope for overcoming challenges and finding happiness post-trauma.

 

Facing my fears head-on, I underwent an immediate procedure. The fear of potential cancer had been quietly running in the background of my life, stashed away in the mental equivalent of a junk drawer. The relief upon discovering no erosion was immense—I had metaphorically emptied a box of unnecessary burdens.

 

This experience motivated me to delve into the dark room in the back of my mind, where I've habitually stashed away things I'd rather not confront. I've realized that this clutter is not just occupying space; it's draining our energy and fueling procrastination. Now, I'm on a mission to free myself from these hidden burdens.

 

Cheers to us for closing those energy-draining tabs! Cheers to facing the darkness and cleaning out the closet of our minds. We've got this.

 

With love and determination,

Me

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